Again,

Life goes on.

It's so simple, It's so logical and it explains so much for such a small sentence.

Sometimes I can be naive. Sometimes I can be so damn stupid it makes me want to smack myself across the face. I rush into stupid things, with a heart expecting something great. I trust too much, I don't trust enough. I come to find myself very insecure but I'm still stupid and curious enough.

I ignore my brain and follow my heart.

I know better.

but again, life goes on.

I took a chance, it failed and here I am. Once again. Alone and having to start all over.

This time it's a lot less complicated. There is no baby, there is nothing to bind us together. Nothing to make it complicated or messy. Just the simple fact that I liked him, and not because of a baby, or because of any other reason. 

It is what it is. 

I know that things happen for a reason and that people come and go as lessons. I know that with Bill, he was meant to be there so I could have Ev, without him I wouldn't have her and she just wouldn't be who she is if she wasn't half of him. He walked out so I could see the strength and courage I had in myself to take on a such a life changing role all on my own. 

Then other people walk in to help you move on from that painful past, because although it taught me a personal strength it still broke me down every where else. That's when someone else steps in your life to show you that maybe their is other love worthy in the world. Even if it doesn't work out maybe its a stepping stone.

I don't know. 

I just don't know.