everything and everyone

You know those days where you're just sick of everything and everyone? Well I've had a few of those lately. I'm honestly sick of living at home. I'm sick of people getting mad at me because my baby cries. First off, she's a baby, second off, she has colic. What the hell am I suppose to do? I try everything and sometimes it just doesn't work. I try and make plans to be else where, and it just upsets people. It's really a lose/lose situation and its taking its toll. The only good part of all of this, is that it motivates me to get the fuck out of this place faster. As much as I need the help, I'd be better off doing it alone, like always.
That's the thing about help. People offer to help but they always use it against you.
I don't really even ask for help, its rare when I do. My family thinks their helping but really they're butting in. I try to inform them of this but they get upset because they "help out so much" well don't.

That's why I plan to be independent and alone. I don't want to get married, I don't want any more kids, I just want it to be me and Ev on our own, elsewhere. I planned on living in Stansbury because I like the area but I'm sick of running into certain people out here. Just to much baggage and bad memories to go around. I need to separate myself from all of this. I have in a sense but I haven't completely escaped yet. I have no idea where to go but I need to go somewhere.

I'm just so damn sick of everything. I'm sick of people butting in my life, I'm sick of dealing with shitty people. It needs to end and I need to get the fuck away before I go insane.