Letting go

I think I've talked about this a million times before, I don't know if its the baby blues or if I just need to say something about it.

I had a dream once. I had a dream that I would find the love of my life. I had a dream that we would be married in a beautiful ceremony. I had a dream we would travel and live our lifes for a while and then have a beautiful baby. I had a dream that we would have two kids, a boy and a girl. I had a dream that we would all be so happy and in love. Oh, it was a good dream.
Will I ever find that dream? no. . as much as I wish I could, I can't.
I'm alone. I always have been but then again I'm not so alone anymore. I have my baby girl and I love her to death but I don't have that love that you get from a significant other. I don't have a partner, I don't have that person to grow old with and watch Evelyn grow up.
Its hard to be alone when I don't feel like I deserve to be. I've never relied on a man for happiness, nor will I ever. But I feel that I got jipped out of companionship. I don't know why I did. I don't know whats wrong with me.
I know it sounds so stupid but sitting her with my baby girl and watching all these little moments and realizing I have no one to share this with, hurts. All I wanted all my life was one person to share times like these with. I've got Ev to share my life with and It will be good enough. I just don't feel its fair that her and I are alone.

I've just got to let go. The dream is over.