Weeeeekend

Soooo now that I plan on just being happy and talking about me and my baby girl, well then I'll write a new post about me and my baby :)

Last night I had a dream about her. She was a happy girl and she was absolutely beautiful. She didn't look much like me, but that's okay. I really wonder if she will look like that when she is born. I sure hope so! My dreams seem to be quite realistic lately.. soo we will see! 

I'm actually excited for this weekend! that's a good change. Its my old friend Venyce's birthday party on Friday and graduation BBQ Saturday. It should be fun, I really haven't seen any of my friends since like.. January/February. I haven't even gone out since like February.. man oh man, I've been couped up! 

I guess it was because I was kind of embarrassed about being pregnant. I'm obviously not embarrassed about it anymore because that's all I talk about. I guess I just didn't want to explain it and have myself look like a stupid girl who did a stupid thing and got knocked up. I was stupid and I did a stupid thing but I get a baby girl! How can I be ashamed of that? I'm ashamed of something else but that's over now lol I was also kinda sad and depressed but I'm changing that and I'm getting OUT.

So all in all I'm now veeeeeeeery excited to see everyone and show them my baby belly. I LOVE my baby belly. being pregnant makes me not self conscious. I can wear tight shirts that show off my belly now and I love that! and its considered cute to have this big old belly. so uh yeah, I'm going to show it off! 

Well anyway, it feels good to actually be free of everything and feel like I can go and have fun!