closing argument

All I can do is laugh. Its just amusing at this point. I've tried to defend myself, but what's the point? I know I'm right, I know I've done the right thing and that's all that matters.

People can think I'm a bitch or think I'm mean and crazy. but I'm not. i don't have to prove that. I don't care if people only want to look at his side of the story. Look at it and believe it. 

I'm not preventing him from being here, hes just not here.

I won't feel bad when in 4 months he misses her birth. I'm not going to stop him from coming. But I'm not going to call him or let him know whats going on. That sounds harsh, yes. But the balls in his court. Its up to him if he wants to be around. I'm done fighting with him, I'm done going out of my way to let him know what happens at doctors appointments. 

and the funny thing is, he won't be around. Problem solved. 

If he has to make the effort, he won't. and I'm not worried. 

I want him around but he wants to be around on his terms which means not at all. It means that he wants to tell everyone he's having a baby and hes super excited but he doesn't want to talk to me or be around me. I'm sorry but that's not how it works. 

I know he works 60 hours a week, I get that. I'm not mad at him for that at all, never was. I'm mad that hes missed a month and half of this pregnancy to hang out with his "bros"

it would be different if he came around more then once a month. 

Basically I'm done. I'm done talking about him, I'm done caring about him. Its about me and my baby girl. I won't mention him on here anymore. He took himself out of this and Its not my duty to keep working him into this equation. 

I really just have to laugh at all the people out there who are so willing to defend him. Hes a great party buddy and he does have good qualities but his lack of respect for me and his child is NOT okay. I had faith in him at one time, I respected him and cared for him and done my best to be there for him too. I can't help that he threw that away, it was his choice. I may have been wrong at how I acted sometimes, sure I could have been more poised when it came to situations but I was angry. and I apologized for freaking out most of the time. but I shouldn't have to justify my actions and I should have to defend myself. What am I being attacked for? what have I really done to him? Yeah I told him I didn't want him around and that he was off the hook, because at this point I don't want him around. I don't need him around. I have my own job and make my own money, plus hes never put forth any money into this child that I have seen yet. I bought the crib, the changing table, the dresser and the stock pile of diapers. I bought the majority of her clothes. Everything that she has, I have gotten. He hasn't paid for anything. He hasn't been to a doctors appointment. He hasn't done anything to claim this as "his child" cause in my eyes, its not. You work for whats yours. And he hasn't done a damn thing for her. 

Oh and I'm not going to make him pay child support, why? because I want nothing to do with him. I never wanted his money, I only wanted his time. He hasn't given me either. So I just want him to go away and resume his life. I gave him the ultimatum yesterday. I told him I wasn't going to call or text him and that if he is going to be around then he will make the effort. If he doesn't then he won't be around. I won't be hearing from him for a long, long time. That's perfectly fine with me :)

In the end, that was his choice not mine.

all that really matters to me is Evee, I could care less what people think. I'm making the right decisions to protect us. Evee is my life and she needs good people in her life. If people think I'm wrong for doing nothing wrong.. well then how are they good people? If people think that calling me a snatch and bitch is going to make him look better, well it doesn't. I'm going to raise my daughter to be a good person and I don't need these bad people influencing her. Shes MY daughter. She is my everything and I will only care about her and what she thinks. She will know that I'm a good mom. I'm not going to tell her what her dad to me, because she shouldn't feel like a bad person because her other half was. So let these people think what they want! I'll be vindicated one day.