Maybe its because I couldn't sleep last night, and that I had to wake up early today. Or maybe its just today. but I'm in a real sour mood. Of course thats not really shocking since I'm usually in a bad mood but today I'm in a bad mood for different reasons.
I do think my bad mood has to do with the fact that I was rudely awoken at 2 AM because somebody thinks its cool to text people at 2 AM. That wouldn't upset me if I could fall asleep fast and if I wouldn't have had so much trouble getting to sleep in the first place. But being pregnant you get these fun little swollen hot feet right at night and I CANNOT sleep with hot feet. I get the type of hot feet that nothing can cure, not lotion, not cold water. NOTHING. so It takes super long for me to fall asleep with hot feet. So getting woken up with a text saying "where are you" at 2 AM when I had just barely fell asleep pisses me off. Especially since I had to wake up at 8 AM. Then I was not able to fall back asleep for about another hour. No I didn't text back because if I would have it would have been quite rude. Saying something like "uh sleeping at home like a normal working adult on a weekday night" DUH I get that its summer for most people but I have a job that I have to go to despite the seasons, same with doctors appointments. I get that this splendid individual may not have an idea of me being pregnant or that I have trouble falling alseep but this person is aware of my job. I need my sleep. Plus I bet if this person was aware of my pregnancy, like everyone else, this person would not be bugging me.
Plus I'm sick of people being rude to me. I always try and be sunshiney nice to everyone that I see everyday despite being angry or sad or whatever horrible mood I'm in at that time. I guess I'm not qualified for equal treatment. Sorry you're having a bad day, I am too but I still manage to muster up some positive attitude and smile to play it off. I'd honestly rather pretend I'm doin just great then be a jerk. I'm only mean to people when they deserve it, and hardly even then. Well actually.. I might be a little more mean now days but I can't exactly hold back like my non-pregnant self.
If you can't tell, I need a vacation. Or a coma.. but that wouldn't work out so well. Basically I need a break. I'm so glad I'm leaving tomorrow. Its a shame that I have to come back but oh well a few days is good enough. I kind of for a minute thought about not leaving this weekend but I have a feeling that I need to. So I am.
Also on the terms of baby shower. Should I even have one? I need one because it would be nice to recieve gifts and the help. Also I want to celebrate being pregnant. But I don't want the attention of being pregnant. I feel awkward in the spotlight. It would be nice to get together with family and friends and recieve baby stuff but I just don't know if I want to have one. I just don't know who I want to invite and even where to have it. Tooele? salt lake? Uggh. I would have loved a baby shower if things in life weren't so.. messy. I don't know I guess I'll wait and decide.
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