It's probably not a good idea to go shopping when your sad. Well I had birthday money so it wasn't that bad. I finally broke down and bought maternity pants. Old navy and target actually had some I liked. The ones at Kohls were expensive and I didn't like the jean material they were made out of. I also bought a tank top and cover up thingy. I also bought myself the new into the wild lotion scent from bath and body works, and I bought some acne clearing concealer. Thank you pregnancy for the beautiful acne you let sprout up on the right side of my chin. I seriously can't cover it up with ANYTHING. So the nice lady at ulta pointed me in the right direction. Apparently my foundation works perfectly for the rest of my face, so no need to change that, I just need concealer. Hopefully it will work! I'm so sick of looking like a meth face. Especially while I'm pregnant lol.
but my favorite purchase of the day... The pink kitty cat bathrobe I bought for little Evee at Carter's! it was only 8.50! and I also bought my mom a surprise.. well its more for Evee but its a cute cupcake onsie set that says "grandmas sweetie" I couldn't resist. It was on sale too! Oh dear, I love carter's.
So for now shopping has improved my mood. It won't last, that's life but It helped for now and I can actually get through work without wanting to cry.
I've been thinking a lot lately, back to a few months ago. I've been thinking about how hopeful I was and how skeptical I was too. I wish I would have kept my skeptical side up a little more. Maybe I wouldn't be in this mess. I knew better, I knew not to fall for it but I did. That's my fault I guess. I knew who he was and I knew that it would be this way. I was stupid to believe any different.
He said he'd change, but then again hes said a lot of things. I really don't care if he changes. I don't want him here. So far, its a new day. He has yet to prove himself and its only day 1. I'm not that dumb anymore and I really don't care if he fails or not. My mom was right when she said he would have to live with his choices. Oh boy, will he. That's not my problem. I've made no mistakes when it comes to growing from a child to a mother. I know whats more important and I'll always know whats more important.
In other my life sucks news, my boss is transferring to a different department. This is terrible news. Hes probably the best boss I'll ever have. He's everything you would want in a boss. Fun, easy going, understanding, easy to talk to and most of all, he was helpful and smart. Now I bet we will get a boss who is way strict and scary. Ahh I'm not looking forward to it! what I need now most of all is an understanding boss. Hes understood why I'm crying sometimes, and he understands why its hard for me to do my job some days and he would take the time and heart to listen to why. I really appreciated that and now I won't have that anymore. and its not just me who is sad, everyone here is. Even people that he wasn't the boss of. Hes done an amazing job and I hope he knows that all of us will miss him (we've made sure to tell him) next tuesday will be a sad, sad day. but This is a good move for him. He will be able to spend time with his family and grow in this company.
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