How

How could God let this happen? How could he let me feel so much pain? How can I be put through this? what did I do to deserve all of this? All I want is to be somewhat happy and be able to grow my baby and make sure shes healthy and I can't do this with all these bad things and people in my life. Why would people let him do this to me? Do they not understand what it feels like? I'm sure they do. what have I ever done to these people where they could let me go through something like this when they had the power to say "hey thats kinda of wrong" am I the only one who thinks thats wrong?

Its insane that I can go from being so elated to this. Its the complete oppposite and its scary.

the kicker of all of this?

Happy birthday to me tommorrow! Oh and it happens to be my first mothers day!

thanks just what I always wanted.. to be in severe emotional pain that it causes physical symptoms too. wow I'm always made to feel special!