A little late but is it too late?

Its weird when you want something to happen for so long and come to the conclusion it won't so you move on and it happens?

I'm at a loss of what to do.. I'm intrigued because its something I've wanted but I'm terrified because it could turn out bad, really really bad.

Should I listen to my heart? Or my head?

I can fight this or I can let nature take its course.

I'm also just confused by it.. why now? Why me? What the fuck? No seriously though, what the fuck?

I just don't even know anymore. Life throws some serious curve balls.