Grateful

This quote has been running through my head.

Some of us only accept being treated well, some of us accept being treated badly, only if you can call it love. Some of us don't accept love at all. Maybe that's based on how we feel about ourselves. 

Sometimes I think that I want to be in love, other times I don't really see the point. I don't know if I believe in it, but then again I see it all around me with other people. I wonder if it's really made for everyone. Maybe I'm just meant to be alone.

I don't really need a big deal relationship. I mostly want a friend. I think i've found it at times but its not right.

If I'm alone forever, I guess it's fine. I don't need to be in love or married to be complete. I don't need someone else to be whole. 

With that said.. I was thinking about how it's truly a blessing that some people have walked out of my life. It's taken me a long time to be OK with it. It is what it is. We weren't meant to be. I'm mostly grateful because instead of having to suffer a long time with this person. Back and forth and hoping for something that would never happen.. he left. Plain and simple. Never looked back, just gone. I don't have to deal with the back and forth.. I don't have to be heartbroken time and time again. It happened.. I learned from it and here I am. And I couldn't be happier..

and honestly.. the best thing he could have probably done for his daughter was to just go. He couldn't have been a father to her, he couldn't have been who she needed. I couldn't have been who she needed if he hadn't of left. 

So I'm grateful, more then ever.