Busy

I've been feeling a TON of anxiety lately. I think it's due to spending so much money. I have it to spend.. but I really want to save it. It drives me nuts how bad I am with saving money!

I've been at my job for 2 weeks now. It feels like I've been there a month. I feel like I left my lest job months ago.. its crazy! I really do love my new job though. The people all seem really genuine and nice. I won't be fully trained until May so I just have to try my hardest to get through the next couple of weeks of learning. I'm VERY nervous to do it on my own.. but I'm hoping it will turn out like USANA where everything just sticks with me and I can do my thanng.

Ev has been driving me NUTS the past week. Shes been so ornery and frustrating! She won't sleep at night. I'm so used to her sleeping through the night that its killing me to get up with her now.. and it sucks that I have to be up so early for work on top of it. I wish she'd just sleep! 

We've also been very busy the past couple of weekends so it sucks to not be getting sleep and trying to keep up with the hustle of life.

For instance this weekend was my friend Rachel's baby shower. She is having a little girl in a couple of weeks and I'm SO excited! It was a nice baby shower because it wasn't like a traditional baby shower. It was a get together and eat food baby shower and it was fun! Ev got to play with a few kids her age, Liam of course and two others, Brynlee and Cooper. There were also two little babies there! Which cured me of my baby hunger.. but not really. (honestly Ev is curing me of my baby hunger!) After Rach's baby shower, her and I and her sister Heidi all hung out at Heidi's with the kiddos. We went and got some yummy casa del rey and just enjoyed a nice day! I love days like that! Although Ev and I were SO tired when we went home that Ev went to bed almost immediatly and I contemplated crashing out at 9pm. For the record, I did not. I watched TV and ate oreos and cookies n cream ice cream instead. lol

Life hasn't been so bad.. just staying busy! I hope that I continue to like my new job and I've been really worried that they will all judge me for a being a single momma. I'm sure they must think that I'm married but they'll find out soon enough. I hate that I worry about being judged. I feel like people are going to think I'm slutty or that I'm crazy and drove him away.. or have them think "oh yeah, I would have left her too." I also don't want people to think of it as a stereotypical scenario  It may be, but it still was one of the hardest things I went through and I don't need it to define me.

but anyways.. here's to another busy week!