Christmas Eve

So here we are, another Christmas. It's finally here :)

I'm so excited for tomorrow, I can't wait to see Ev's face!

I have everything set up for when she wakes up!

Tonight we drank hot coco and we listened to Christmas music, opened a Christmas gift (a book about Christmas if you must know) read that book and played for a bit.

Now my little one is snoozing and I'm here, writing on my blog. ha.

Tonight I ended up having to work. I was suppose to work 6-10 but I ended up working 4-7 which was A LOT better. The snow was AWFUL today. I wanted a white Christmas but after I was home safe! 

My work really made me mad though. 

One of the other girls who was suppose to work 2-6 got in a fender bender on the way there. She lives 10 minutes away and couldn't make it in and they expected me to come in right then..

uh, I live 45 minutes away? How am I suppose to make it?

Anyways.. I made it. My mom, step-dad and Ev all drove in too. They went to my grandparents for a little Christmas Eve get together while I worked.

which not to mention but was POINTLESS. I watched ink master the whole time (which is my new obsession at the moment, I'm kind of really over SOA)

There was NOTHING to make, NOTHING to do, NO ONE to help. 

so why was it so urgent for me to be there?

Ugh, whatever.

But with work, I do LOVE it there and I do not want to quit or leave. I've found some wonderful people there and I have met some great people! For instance, I have a guy who runs a meeting there. Hes given compliments to my boss about how I am nice ect. He always brings me in treats and he even gave me a Christmas present!

Then I went to my grandparents and hung out until we decided to make the trip home.

I can say it was a good night.

I don't want to whine, but here I go. It bothers me being alone on Christmas. Not like I want any old boyfriend but its hard to see people and their cute families and think to myself.. Why can't I have that? I know it's so silly but the worst thing I think about is, why can't Ev have that? Obviously there's a reason why that person isn't around her and I and its for the best it really is. I just look at pictures of us and can see that person standing right there.. if only he was the person that he needed to be.. but he's not and he'll never be. and until that person comes along, I'm going to look at the pictures of her and I and know that no matter what we are blessed. 

I have a great family, I have great friends and I honestly have the most wonderful, smart, kind, beautiful little girl. I don't need much else, do I?

Well merry Christmas all! 

Life is good :)