Thanksgiving

I hope everyone had a great thanksgiving!

Ev and I sure did!

I worked a 12 hour shift the day before but I wasn't going to whine because I got the whole thanksgiving day off! I was super tired when I got home and fell asleep at around 10:30 which is early for me (I'm a night owl) Ev decided to be super cute and wake up at 6:30 screaming bloody freakin murder. All I had to do was make her a bottle and rock her a bit to calm her down. Then she went back to bed until 9:30, hallelujah! I bet the poor thing was having a nightmare or something. I sure did that whole night. You know you work a ton, when you have dreams of working a ton.. and its probably not the best to watch American Horror story right before bed.. especially when its about an asylum and well.. I work in a pysch hospital ha..(although this place is NOTHING like the asylum in that show) and even my mom said she was having weird dreams. I wonder if we all ate something strange..

but anyways.. We woke up and decided to watch the macy's thanksgiving parade. I didn't think Ev would like it but she LOVED it! Especially when the marching bands played. She loved dancing and clapping. Then she got sleepy and wanted to cuddle. Oh, how I love those moments!

Then it was nap time and time for me to get ready! I love that she'll go down for naps so easy. I know when its nap time because I'll ask if she wants a nap and she'll suck her fingers. Then I can lay her down in her crib with no fight! Its not like that all of the time.. but when it is, it's nice!

So..we all got ready and got everything packed up and went to my grandparents. Thanksgiving used to have a lot more people and we were missing a few this year and it seemed a little sad.. but in reality its been replaced with littler people like Bells, Ev and Hadley. Plus its SO much funner with little ones running around! It was especially fun because Ev could run around and play!

Ev and Bell's pushed their babies around the house in their strollers and it was so cute to see. Next year Miss Hadley will be doing the same! They made a HUGE freakin mess of toys. But they had a lot of fun! We ate a WHOLE bunch of food and sadly the vomitting turkey gravy boat did not make an appearance this year.. boo! But I definetly got fat girl wasted because I felt like a beached whale at the end of dinner and had to lay on the floor with my pants unbuttoned. (should of wore leggings) All while Ev and bells jumped and climbed on me. Ev even decided to take a seat on my head. Smashing her diaper butt in my face! haha. She also defended herself against bells and pushed bells when she was in her way (she was blocking her from Aunt Jojo) so it was a fun sight to see. When we left Ev gave everyone kisses. She gave my grandpa a sweet little kiss on the cheek and it just melted my heart! I love that sweet girl!

Then we got home and I put some yoga pants on and it was time to PLAY! My aunt let me borrow the book The Help. And now I CAN NOT stop reading it!! I'm a little late on this book and I had just watched the movie like.. 2 weeks ago. But can I tell you how much I LOVE both? This is one of the best movies/books I've seen/read in a long time! If you haven't seen the movie, I suggest seeing it! And if you haven't read the book well, do it NOW! Before you see the movie. I like reading the book first because it allows you to set the scene of the story with your own mind, rather than using what was set by the movie. I messed up and watched the movie first so now I have pictures of what the characters look like. Its not so bad but I love what my head comes up with. Ev, my mom and I also watched a movie about Sylvia Plath. Which was rather depressing.. but good. I really liked her book the bell jar. which again, was depressing but good. Ev didn't watch the movie but climbed all over me and I had to be careful to make sure she didn't fall of the bed. (which she did but she landed on the dog bed and laughed) Her and I have taken to jumping on the bed and she thinks that's a blast. She'll just laugh her little heart out. Then eventually she'll get sleepy and go to bed.. but

with that said..

I know exactly what I'm thankful for.

I have a million things to be thankful for.. but I also have ONE BIG reason to be thankful.

You guessed it, Ev.

She honestly has made my life so much better. We had a rough beginning and no where in this journey has easy written on it. Theres been good Up's and hard Down's but it's all lead up to here and now and I wouldn't have had it any other way.

I'm thankful for this girl, with every ounce of my heart.

I'm thankful for the sweet smiles and giggles. The sweet smiles she'll give me at the dinner table.

I'm thankful for those moments of fun, when Ev will climb on me and hold my face and just slobber on me (tI think she is attempting some big mushy kisses)

I'm thankful for the little "mama's" I get when she wants me.

I'm thankful for the way she lights up when I walk in the room.

I'm thankful for the fun exciting moments, as in her peeing in the potty, saying cupcake!

I'm thankful for the snuggles I get.

I'm thankful for all the love I get.

I'm thankful to know that this little girl loves me unconditionally and most of I'm thankful for all the love I have for her. There's honestly no way to explain the love you can have for you're child. Its the best feeling in the world and nothing and no one else could ever change that love. I'm so grateful that this little girl chose me as her Mama and I'm so grateful that she'll forever be mine!

I could go on forever but seriously. I LOVE my little girl. I could never explain how much I love her. I'm also very thankful for other things, seriously. The past couple years of my life have been the most challenging years and I'm sure it will somehow always be like that. There were times I didn't think I could make it another day.. but somehow I've pulled myself out of a hole so deep and here I am!

I'm definetly thankful for my family. They're always there when you need them.

My mom. She can make me want to kill her sometimes but she's been the person whos been there every day, not only for me but for Ev too!

I'm thankful for my job. It frustrates the hell out of me sometimes but again. Its a good job! I love it.

I'm just thankful for a lot of things. I'm thankful that I'm here and although life isn't what I wanted it, and it's not exactly what I want it to be but its good and there's always the future and I can have what I want out of life eventually. Maybe now isn't the right time but someday it will be.

I'll end this mushy gushy post with some of the pictures I took yesterday. Of course they are of me and Ev haha. P.s. Ev has discovered pictures! She loves looking at them and pointing out the people in them. SO CUTE makes me glad I've documented her whole life haha.

Ev attacking me haha I love how goofy she is

Gettin the food ready!

So much changes in a year! Ev last year.. and Ev this year!