Snow

Last night was probably one of the worst nights ever.

It was so windy and nosiy and that Ev would NOT sleep. I'm not sure if it was her stuffy nose or the loud wind or both but either way she would NOT sleep. I was a little upset because I had to work a 9 hours today. And when Ev would finally sleep the dogs would wake up and whine until I got up and let them outside. Which is annoying because they aren't even my dogs techinically! ugh.

and when I finanlly did have sleep, I had nightmares! I had a dream that I saw my ex, not my baby daddy ex but the recent one. That part was good because in my dream we saw each other and it was nice because we acted like we were together. But in a way that sucks because we are not together and I doubt we will ever be together again. Then another part of my dream I was on a date and I saw him with another girl and I went and punch her and him both. Which is ridiculous because I would never do that in real life.

I also had a dream that I had a conversation with my ex's girlfriend (baby daddy ex) and well, who would want to do that?

I HATE dreams like that. HATE, HATE them. I wish I didn't dream about the past. I wish I could dream just pure nonsense. not real, past-like dreams.

but anyways..

so the snow is finally here! I think it's very pretty but again I hate driving in it. It's scary enough but add people who think they can drive like whatever. I mean swerving in and out of lanes, Speeding ect. Put your own life at risk if you must, but I don't want to crash and die. I mean you don't have to go incredibly slow but at least go the speed limit or less. and respect other people who are scared on the road.

but with the snow I'm excited to play in it with Ev. She is finally old enough! I was a little unprepaired though because Ev didn't havea winter coat until this morning. That's when I went to wal-mart and bought her a WAY cute hot pink/zebra one! I'm sure everyone will have that coat for their babies but I don't care it was $20 and freakin cute! Not to mention wal-mart has some cute baby stuff lately. I'm really impressed! I went there yesterday and found the custest dress for $3! can you believe that? Ev approved because as soon as I showed her she smiled and grabbed the dress to hug it. Then she proceeded to try and put it on.. so it's safe to say that I bought it!

And not to mention that an old friend from diabetes camp is making Ev a CUPCAKE beanie!! Ev has one but it's too small for her fat little head so I'll probably give that to my aunt for baby Hadley or I'll give it to Rachel for baby "Ned" :)

but I'm VERY excited for a Ev's new hat! Especially because it will be SUPER cute and it will have more meaning since somebody made it and I didn't just buy it from the store.

Remember my old job Mediconnect? Well lately I've been thinking of writing a reveiw on how HORRIBLE that place is. Seriously. My friend who got me the job is having a lot of trouble with them lately as well. Apparently they've been giving him problems due to his diabetes as well. Honestly when I worked there that was probably the sickest I've felt in my life. It was constant stress and I had TONS of anxiety and stress being there. Which made the depression and anxiety i already had a million times worse! And I wasn't even doing a difficult job. It was just the atmosphere and the managment. Mediconnect was theee most terrible place I have ever worked in my life and I'll advise everyone to let everyone know that and to not work there. especially if you're diabetic!

but moving on..

I found out today that I'll no longer be working in intake. Which is fine because I never really did anything in intake. I mostly helped with the front desk. But that means I'll be off an extra day!! yes! which sucks on the money aspect but I'll be able to hang out with my little stinky pants more. And that is perfectly okay!