random babble

I need some motivation.. to get my lazy ass to the gym! Its not really about getting skinny anymore. I'll never be skinny, so its pointless. But I want to have some muscle and strength! Plus I'm paying for it, so I should probably use it. My goal is to at least get my 25 dollars worth. I think its 6 dollars every time you go so in essence I'll only need to go 4 maybe 5 times a month.. that's like once a week. I should be going at least two times a week. It's tough with work now because I can't go so late at night.. and I'm usually pretty tired. Also it depends on if Ev will go to bed early enough or not.

Plus I've been eating like a damn pig the past few days. With all these wedding receptions and bbq deals. I haven't been very shy with the hamburgers! But home made hamburgers are just sooo good.

but seriously, no more excuses. GYM TIME.

On another subject...dating. Oh dating. I feel like I'm finally ready. Maybe. I'm at the point where it's time to just move on. I don't want to talk about the past anymore.. I don't want to think about it. I just want a fresh new start. I'm very cautious and wary when it comes to dating.  I have my eye on someone though.. but who knows what will happen! I've learned not to count on anything.. but it seems like once I have my eye on someone, a lot of other people bust out of the woodwork.. random people at that. Its kind of annoying.. haha I just want to focus on ONE person at a time! seriously.

I'm just really cautious. I have my doubts, I have my worries and at times I wonder if its even worth the trouble or if I should just be single for another year. but then again its getting frustrating being alone all of time. Like I said before, I just want someone to have fun with.. ease into dating. I'm not looking to be married right now. But sometimes the weirdos I meet crack me up. I think I have a knack for older men.. like 30 and older.. which I mean is whatever but someone gave me their business card.. haha ironically they work for a nursing home.Or I'll get random messages from strangers saying Hi, text me. lol Uh I don't know you.. Its just funny. But I swear. Its either none or a million at once. Annoying.


In Ev news.. well she has decided to start this horrid scream that sounds like shes screamed to much and her voice is hoarse. Its awful. but I have found her birthday dress! For 10 dollars too and its PERFECT! Not to mention that she'll be one in TWO weeks. ONE IN TWO WEEKS! less than two weeks actually.. frightening..