hmm

This weekend..

is suppose to be a bachelorette party. Change of plans and they are having a family type day up in park city. Bring ya spouse and ya kid.

Well I have a kid.. and so does pretty much everyone else.. but out of all these people I'm the only single friend.

now I'm not complaining about being single. It's whatever, right? I just don't like doing "couple" things with all my coupled up friends. I feel like a complete outcast, a lonely loser and I just don't feel comfortable. Plus no one really talks to me. The preggys are talking babies, the future Mrs.'s are talking about that and here I am my lonesome little self.. well minding my own beeswax and making sure Ev doesn't get plowed over by all of the other kids, (They are older and bigger) So what's the point in me going? I go to all these things and sit there with Ev while everyone ignores me and talks amongst themselves over the perfect little lives. I'm just over the couples thing. It's not my style and I obviously am not real welcome as a sole individual.. with a baby. ha.

Is it bad that I may play sick for this event and well, stay home and do nothing? I just hate hanging out with a group of people where I feel all alone. I just don't feel included in this group and driving all the way to park city to do what I can do here.. seems rather silly. I doubt they'll notice if I don't show.

The past couple of days I have been plagued with anxiety. I hate it! I believe its brought on by traffic. Because traffic sucks and I always get anxiety while in traffic. what's wrong with me?!

Then I have Ev's birthday which I really need to figure out the details. I'm about ready to do nothing at all..