an update

So my last post wasn't really peachy. So Please excuse me for that.. but that chapter is closed, done, over. Hopefully forever but at least for now, it'll be a while. I don't need to defend myself. I don't need to explain myself because in the end, any way you put it or say it or whatever, I know I'm not wrong. I admit my mistakes, I made them and I understand I could of done more things.. but I did what I knew how.. and the rest had to come from that one other person..

but moving on..

I've been at my job for a week now. I like it so far. It's interesting because I like the people I'm going to work with but they're all so..young.. and some of them are my age or a year older. I feel a little out of place being a single mom, but in another way I feel comfort in being that young. I guess I feel out of place but then again I can relate with them because I am a 21 year old woman.. not 35. But in good news I got my desk! I'm excited to decorate it :) I miss having a nice lookin desk and office things. The job is very detailed oriented which makes me nervous. The calls aren't even bad. They are in bound so I decide when I'm on the phone. Plus the average phone time is 4 hours and the average paperwork time is 4 hours. works for me!
My new desk inspired me to print out pictures of Ev again. Especially the ones that people think I went and got done but I really took. Makes me proud! I have to credit Ev though. She's the beauty that makes the pictures.

This week has been the longest week of my life. Seriously. Getting up early and having bucket loads of information spat at you everyday makes for a long week. Luckily the weekend made up for it! Friday night after work I went and saw Rachel. We decided to go get dinner at good ol Chili's. We had some food a couple drinks and called it a night at like.. seven lol. Let me tell you though, chili's pina coladas and strawberry daiquiris are close to amazing! Then I went home and snuggle my tookie bird. :)
Saturday I did nothing..cousin Bells came over for Ev's VERY first sleepover! We had a super fun dance party lol. We shook our booties, clapped our hands and waved our hands in the air like we just didn't care.. It was actually a blast. Who thought a 2 year old and an 8 month old were so fun?! haha which means that..

Ev knows how to clap! I know thats not a big deal but it means she's aware and she understands words and gestures. I can just tell her to clap her hands and she knows what I'm talking about! I don't even have to show her. She also knows how to high five and wave :) I'm pretty proud!!


but after the fun dance party, it was sleepy time. They wore their matching Minnie mouse jammies. I had a birthday party/bachelorette party that I wasn't too, conveniently at the same place. which happened to be the westerner bar! I've been wanting to go to that place for sometime and I'm glad I did. FUN. Plus there were a TON of people I knew so that made it even funner! It was one of the funnest nights I've had!
then of course Bell's and Ev wanted to wake up at 5 am.. yay! haha

but today bells, ev and I and my mom went and fed ducks, blew bubbles and played. it was definitely fun and I love my little Bellsa. Ev LOVED having her here. She was so happy she was here to play with her. :)

but now its Sunday night and work starts all over again bright and early.. why is it that weekends go by so fast?! So far the only thing I hate about work is waking up.. and well that 8 hours seems to go by super slow here. not to mention I CAN'T have my cellphone or be on any websites. But the work is steady so I won't be bored.

despite the minor set back, I feel a little free. It gives me anxiety to finally remove toxic people in my life because I was hoping they wouldn't always be toxic.. but they are. I feel good and content for now and honestly, that's all I really want. :)