Yesterday was a good day. It was my day off and I really had no plans but Rachel had asked if I would like to go to Victoria's secret with her. Err.. being broke isn't fun. I'm obsessed with their yoga pants and jackets. But I don't have money to spend ont hat right now.. so I contemplated NOT going. but then I didn't want to sit home on my day of.. so I packed up Ev and we went! I was very tempted to buy stuff but I didn't. GO ME! Ev was super cute at the mall. She slept, woke up and played toys and she smiled at everyone who talked to her! Everyone kept saying how cute she was! Then we went to cost co to pick up some things for a BBQ they were having for Rachel's brothers girlfriend. Rachel had her brother's Costco card so we thought we would be fine. We got EVERYTHING we needed and they told us she couldn't but it cause it wasn't her card. Yes, seriously.
By then we were running out of time, so we headed to wal-mart and picked up everything there. We got it and rewarded ourselves with a frosty from Wendy's. Then we went to good old fetal photos.
why fetal photos? well... Rachel's brother is having a baby! haha got ya there! They were surprising his girlfriend with fetal photos for her birthday. She's only 12 weeks so it wasn't a guarantee they'd find out the sex or not but they did! It's a boy! He was a wiggly little guy too! All over the place. It was cool to see and to be honest I miss that very, very much. I hope one day when I'm married, I'm over my fear of the c-section so I can have another one. I want to go through pregnancy again. Even with the morning sickness. Then at the BBQ they told everyone. And we ate food. then I went home lol
all in all it was a good day. Mostly because Ev was happy and did not throw ONE fit. Well she did when we got home but we were home and she was super tired. I hate when she throws fits while were at peoples houses, its so embarrassing. If you know EV, she has a temper from HELL. Don't let the cute pictures fool you, this girl can throw a fit, an I'm-so-mad-I'll-turn-bright-red-and-make-sounds-only-dolphins-can-hear-fit. It's frightening. and its nerve racking to try and calm her down. I feel like a bad mom when she throws fits like that. Ev's not one to simply cry or whine (she still does that) she Will give you a two second I'm getting mad warning but if you don't responded ASAP, its over. She loses her shit (literally, she sometimes poops her pants during these fits) and it takes FOR-EVER to calm her down.
but she wasn't like that yesterday! :) and she hasn't been like that too much lately either. I think its the tooth that's popped through maybe. Ev just a pretty happy girl now, She loves smiling. She loves rough housing, which I never thought I'd see the day. She seriously loves when I turn her upside down and swing her and she loves to bounced upside down like I'm shaking her lunch money out. Yeah, my childs weird. She also loves me to sing to her, she loves the songs I re-written for her like "pukerface" a rendition of "pokerface", ABC's, I also sing the L is for the way you look at me, and this song on the radio called tongue tied. and the row your boat song. She loves my Grandpa because he loves to sing and he always sings to her.
I just love my baby :) Shes tough sometimes but I wouldn't have it any other way! I just love my little girl and I really can't say it enough! I love her so much there are no words to explain it. Which brings me to watching 19 kids and counting the other night. If you don't watch that show, its about a couple who has 19 kids, yes 19! and with her 19th child she had toxemia I think and had her daughter at 20 weeks and she survived but barely. So when they announced that they were on their 20th child I knew it wasn't going to end up good.. and in this last episode was where she went through a miscarriage. She was 18 weeks along and when they went to find out the gender, they found it no longer had a heartbeat. I seriously bawled. I don't care how many kids you have, I don't care how far along you are. To lose a child in utero is awful, heartbreaking. I remember the fear of Ev not being okay and it would keep me up at night. I couldn't imagine going through that. My heart really goes out to them and their family. but It does make me grateful for the happy healthy girl I have. I'm so glad my worst fears with her never came true! SOOO grateful!
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