I've finally decided that its time to go to counseling. I feel a lot better compared to how I was but I still struggle with a lot things. I still feel angry, bitter, resentful and guilty. I'm mad about what happened, I'm mad that Ev and I were abandoned..especially Ev. But instead of revenge.. I just want to move on. I don't want to see comments and things on facebook and let it ruin my day, I don't want to hear things and be upset by it. I just want to go on my own and be happy.
I heard a good quote too:
Be a better you rather than finding someone better than your ex, cause a better you will find a better next.
I hope this helps. I hope I can better myself mentally, physically and all to be above. I want to be the best person I can be for not only myself, but ev. I want to be a strong role model for her. I want to be someone she can be proud of. I want to be someone that I would want her to be.
So ill see what happens. I go Wednesday and I'm nervous, and excited all at the same time. I don't know what to think to be honest! But I'm ready to be free of the past. I'm ready to be free of all the hurt and anger.
I'm also ready to get rid of my pudgy little belly (working on that too)
Lifes quite the journey and I'm excited to take the next step.
i think counseling will be good! i still sometimes think about going myself- because i think my parents divorce has caused more issues in my head then i'd like, haha. i never see anything wrong with finding ways to help you have peace of mind! good luck girly.
ReplyDeleteIt never hurts to ask for help! I've been thinking about going to counseling for months now. I'm glad I'm finally going and hopefully it will help get over all that stuff! I'd like to be a more positive person lol
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