frustrated

Ugh, so I'm feeling a little bugged. I know it's stupid and it's all because I saw what's-his-face at the store. It just bothers me how much someone can just NOT care. It bothers how someone can make up so many excuses and lies and get away with it. In all honesty it would be better if he left Ev and I alone but it's still sad that he does without a care in the world.
I know that he tells people that he calls and texts all the time, but he doesn't. he hasn't since the beginning of October. I've seen him two different places and he doesn't say a WORD. Then he'll say stuff about hating people he sees around town. Really?
It frustrates me to no end because I don't know what the right answer is. I never intended to keep Ev away from him, he just never asks to see her. and then I hear about things he does and it makes me sick and It makes me grateful that hes not around Ev.
I don't know where to go from here I'm hoping that he can just stay away and me and Ev can move on. I don't think he'll ever change and become the person he needs to be for Ev. Ev needs the best daddy in the world, someone who will put her first (and not go on dates while shes in the hospital..).

I know it's childish and dumb to even bring up but I'm fed up with the whole thing! I feel like I can't go anywhere in this town without that whole thing being brought up or running into people I just don't need to see. I honestly wish I could move to a different state sometimes, just to get away from it all. I try so hard to stay out of it all and all I'm trying to do is what I should be doing.

UGH.