rambling

Being back at work sucks.. I really wish I could be a stay at home mom sometimes. It's nice to get out of the house and have a break but it's not really a break when it comes to work. UGH.
But all in all I'm grateful to have a job and glad that I can provide for me and Ev by myself. :)

So it's time for the new year already. This year went by FAST. I remember new years last year like it was yesterday. It seriously feels like it just barely happened. I had high hopes for 2011, I thought it would be a AWESOME year. In some times it was the greatest year of my life, in other ways it was the worst. It was definitely a life changing year. I've grown up this year in many, many ways.
It's almost been a year since Ev was conceived, 1/2 to be exact. In case you cared to know.. haha She will be 4 months on that day. So instead I'm going to focus on that. Wow, it's just crazy to think that all of this has happened in a year.

I don't have many expectations for this year. I kind of want things to go how they will go. I know its going to be fun because Ev is growing up but I realize there will probably be some hard times too. That's the life of a single mom but its one I willingly accept (I have no choice haha)  All I'm trying to say is.. I'm going to let things be the way they will. I've learned that no matter what I do and say sometimes, things are just going to be how they are and the only thing  I can change, is my attitude. I'm not a victim anymore, I was burned but now its the past and I'm moving on. No reason to stay in the fire..

So whatever may happen, I guess I'll welcome it with open arms. I'm excited for life and I'm excited to just live it.