Moving on with mommyhood.

So motherhood. How has that been going? well its been tiring. A constant battle. Ev is the hardest child to put back to sleep. Once she wakes up, she likes to be up for 2 hours. Which is fine in the day, but at night? So tiring.. Its taking both me and my mom to get her back down. Evee is a fighter.
The only problem with Ev being awake is that she screams. She is not a happy baby per say. She literally will cry every waking moment. I hate that she does it, I feel like a bad mom. She is sometimes content but she needs to be held very specifically.
Shes HARD work. But I'm hoping it will pay off eventually.
I think all her fussiness has to do with the fact that I had to stop breastfeeding. My diabetes was just preventing me from making enough milk and It was getting to hard and frustrating to keep trying. So I gave up. But I still try to pump in the mornings and at night so she can have some.
Losing my milk has been extremely depressing, let me tell you.

But for all the frustrations, when Ev is calm I can usually get her to fall alseep in my arms. She did that today twice and once she feel asleep laying on my belly. I love that more then anything.