its a neverending thing

People worry me a little bit..
I just don't understand peoples priorities and I don't get how they can just live life the way they do. I gave up everything to take care of my baby. Do I have a big huge social life? not anymore.. Do I got out every weekend and party? Nope.
and if I did I sure as hell would be making sure my baby was taken care of before I did. My mom is here to babysit at anytime, do I make her though? no. I'd rather just be home with my baby.

Tomorrow Ev will be a month old. How many times has her father came to see her? once. How many times has he attempted to see her? zero. Its sad is what it is. I knew it would be this way, so who am I kidding?

I'm just sick of hearing about everything he does. It really makes me sick. Well actually, it makes me laugh now. Its just completely ridiculous. Seriously? and you said Ev was your FIRST priority..  uh..yeah..


but seriously its time to move ON. Its a neverending drama session with this kid. I have better things to do like Uhh raise a baby. I don't want revenge and I don't even want to put in a last word. I just want to go on with my life with no ties to him at all. This isn't high school anymore.
Its like no matter what you do or what you say, the same thing will happen over and over again. It never changes, it never gets better and everytime you let him back in, he fucks you over.

but this is real life now and I can't be held back because one person decided not to grow up and be a man.

so on with life I guess! It may be hard and rough, but doesn't that pay off eventually? If not.. I guess I'll have worked my hardest my whole life and thats something to be proud of.
I did the RIGHT thing. I always have and always will.