The Grass is greener on the other side.

Is the grass greener on the other side? In my case, most definitely. I feel like I'm standing in a quick sand in a yard of dirt.
It seems lately that things don't ease up or get easier. Something always has to crash down on me before I reach the good part.
Everyone says it gets better, and I'm trying hard to believe it. I don't know if I'm strong enough to keep taking blows like this.
Life has been sort of cruel to me lately.. and I don't know if it will ever stop. Once things seem to go smooth, something.. or rather someone comes back and destroys what I've rebuilt of myself.
I guess its my fault for letting people back in. I think I forgive to easily. I think I try to hard to see the good in people that I forget to watch my back.

I don't know the lesson or the reason behind all of this. I don't know why I let other peoples choices affect me so much. I wish I could be stronger and not care either. but I can't. I don't want to be angry with God, but I don't get why I'm getting hit so hard with everything.

For now all I can do is wait it out. Maybe one day the grass can be greener on my side but it looks like I'll have to build my yard back from scratch.