birth

So first off I would like to announce that my beautiful little Evee is SIX WEEKS OLD today! Can you believe it? Time is flying by FAST. Chunkers is just getting bigger each day. Not to mention STRONG. This little lady puts up a fight and a good one at that. Especially at 3:00am. Baby girl does NOT want to sleep at night.

With that said, I decided to dust off an old book of mine. Its called "Birth" Its the history of how we are born. It covers midwives, birthing tools, c-sections ect. Its probably one of the coolest/gruesome books I've read! I read this previously but it didn't mean as much because I hadn't experienced birth or pregnancy and I forgot much of what I read. Now it means a lot more as to the fact that I can relate. I'm just grateful I decided to re-read this book after I gave birth rather then before! Especially when it comes to the c-section chapter. As you know, I had a c-section. As you also know, I hated having a c-section. I was very upset that I had to have one. but in the end I just wanted her out and that was the only way to get her out!
The history of c-sections is crazy. Back in the day, it meant death. but of course, as technology got better, c-sections became livable. Back in the olden days they would cut vertically up the stomach(OUCH), I'm glad they discovered the "Bikini cut". Not only does it make the scar less noticeable, it is a better cut to do. It cuts through the softer part of the uterus and the part of the body where there isn't as much layers of tissue. I can't imagine what it would be like to be cut vertically up the stomach. 
It also discussed controversy of whether or not a c-section is really required. I wondered that too. I wondered if it was necessary for me to have one. Thinking back.. well I think it was necessary and I'm glad that I had one instead of trying for too long and have something go wrong with Ev. Like one lady the book mentioned who refused a c-section due to religious reasons. She ended up having to have an emergency one two days later, but by then the baby had died.
The one thing that I saw as weird, is that some people schedule c-sections without having a medical reason to have one. If I could choose how I would give birth, I would pick vaginal over anything. I don't care if it would mess up stuff down there. I think c-sections are a good thing if they are medically needed.
but reading about c-sections scared the living fuck out of me. I really can't believe that I had one and that what they described in the book is what I went through and awake! Its frightening. It also kind of makes me terrified to have another child. I would try to have a VBAC (vaginal birth after Cesarean) but those are very rare to have and very risky. I honestly don't plan to have another kid, I really don't think I can go through all the trauma again but who knows what the future will hold.

but all in all, birth is really amazing. The whole process of it leaves me wonderstruck. How do we manage to do it? It seems impossible but its really not. I'm definitely grateful to be living in the NOW times. We have it so much easier these days. Birth in the old days was even more frightening then it is now. I really recommend this book its truly amazing. It makes you appreciate being a woman these days.



Oh and I would like to announce that I found TO GO formula. You know those packets that you use to flavor water? Well I found those but they are formula!! They make 4 ounces which is what Ev eats. and its in SOY! yay! Life saver!!