Because I can

So it's September 26th
Why is this day so significant? well.. It was Evees due date! Obviously I didn't make it to her due date and I couldn't imagine what it would have been like if I had. First of I would have been HUGE. I'm sure my skin would have split and little miss Evee would have been like 12 pounds. Life would suck if I would have made it this far.

but the point of this blog is to say..
I've been worried about finding someone to be with. I think its because I feel that I deserve companionship too and it would be nice to have someone to be there with me through this all. But in reality, I know I'm better on my own. I always have been and always will be. I've never been a relationship person and its not because I'm scared of commitment, I'd just rather be independent. I only wanted a relationship now to prove I'm not alone either. But I am alone and I'm better off. It allows me to focus on whats important.. Evelyn.
So with saying that, I plan to stay single at least 6 months. which will be easy. When I make it 6 months, I'll go to a year.. then I'll see after that.
I don't see the point in finding anyone anymore. I only ever wanted to be married to have a baby and now that I have one. what's the point? Plus I don't want anymore kids. All I want is to be able to take care of myself and Ev and I can do it, on my own. I want to buy my own house, and all my own stuff and live a happy life with Evelyn and our family and friends. I have everything i need without a husband/boyfriend and I'll continue to have everything without one.

I'm alone because I can be.

thank you very much.