Wow..

Its weird how judgemental people can become. I mean I understand people trying to find themselves and changing things in their lives to make their life better. Such as getting a new religion. I've said before that I'm not religious. Its nothing against religion, I just don't believe in the religions that are out there. I don't judge people for having religions, I don't think their close minded or stupid for believing in anything. If people have a religion, that's great to me. But I don't get why people are so judgemental towards me. I know I'm not the most righteous gal out there, but I never claimed to be. I have morals and values and yeah I've screwed up a time or two but I've accepted the consequences from those mistakes and have taken responsibility. I know right from wrong.

I would understand someone judging me for having a child out of wedlock if I were doing the wrong thing. whats the wrong thing? well that would be doing drugs, drinking, partying, sleeping around.. all while pregnant AND after. Not caring for my child and being selfish.

Am I doing any of those things?

no..

what am I doing to prepare for my unborn child? Well I'm saving money, I'm working my ass off to make money. I'm home the majority of my time, unless I'm at work or the doctor. I take good care of myself. If I do hang out with friends its doing something like hanging out at their house, watching movies, BBQs and talking.

I don't have a religion, and I never will. I don't have problems with people who have religions and I never will. I do have problems with people who use their religion as a reason to shun people and people who are rude. I thought the teachings of God were to love? Obviously this is one of the hardest times of my life and I've struggled immensely. Shouldn't someone who has the teachings of God reach out and be a friend? especially to someone you have been friends with for a long time? Although you don't agree with the situation? Me getting pregnant without being married isn't going to end the world, it doesn't even affect anyone else but me. So I don't see how someone can say that they don't want me in their life because their religious now and I'm not righteous. I get that you don't agree with it and I get that you've moved on to a righteous awesome Jesus lovin life. But that doesn't give you right to be rude. I've admitted my mistakes and I'm doing the right thing. As someone who has chosen the path of God, why are you turning your back on someone who needs it most? I know that she went through a hard time recently, the thing is, I didn't know about it. If I would have known, I would have been there.

I've reached out during this hard time because if I wouldn't have, I probably wouldn't be here right now. I've been honest about whats happened because I'm not ashamed of what I've done. So if your religious beliefs tell you to exile friends from your life because they made a mistake and they don't follow your religion, then that's not a very good religion. I know many people with this religion and I know that's not what they teach, but maybe its been taken wrong by some.

One more thing involving religion that bothers me, is people who are supposedly this religion and they do things that are against their religion. Practice what you preach. haven't you heard that. This also pertains to a certain someone I've spoken about before. Don't say your religious and make yourself out to be this religious person if you do everything your taught against. If I "sin" its not a big deal because I don't pretend to be righteous. I still try to have morals and not "sin" but as you noticed I've messed up recently. I'm just really sick of people who use religion as a way to claim they're better then people. It doesn't make you a good person if you go to church or if you were baptized. What makes a good person is what they do and how they treat people. Religion has nothing to do with how good a person is honestly. I've met plenty of religious people who are cruel people.

Here is a good quote that I find fitting

"I'd rather be an open sinner, then a false saint"

Because as an open sinner, at least I'm being honest.