Day Three

Day 3 My view on alcohol and drugs


I've never been much of a drinker, partly because I cant drink very much before I get sick. Yeah, I'm a lightweight. I don't care for the taste of alcohol. The only thing I can stand to drink is beer, and even then.. I've tried only one beer in my life that I thought remotely tasted good. That was some German beer at squatters. To get to the point, I just don't like to drink. I know a lot of people who have struggled with drinking. Alcohol is like a sickness. I don't understand its appeal and I hopefully won't ever. It tears up families, it destroys lifes. I'm not against drinking, I think in moderation is just fine but I could live without drinking. Also If I ever find a man suitable to marry, he will NOT be a regular drinker. Obviously I made the mistake of trying to make it work with someone who loves to drink more then his child.


Now drugs are a COMPLETELY different story with me. I have little to no experience with drugs. I have no desire to do them or be around them. drugs destroy everything. I think they are disgusting. There is absolutely NO reason to go out and do drugs. I understand experimenting but I hate that they are so addicting. I've seen sooo many peoples life's ruined by these and I've seen them consume peoples lives. I will never ever do drugs.

I really hope I didn't offend anyone. I can understand the appeal of alcohol and drugs and yes, there have been times where I wish I could chug down some form of alcohol and numb everything I feel. Especially these last few months. Of course I didn't do that! and I never would. I wouldn't even do it if I wasn't pregnant. Its hard to cope with severe pain, and I know that. I never knew real pain until recently and I can see why people turn to alcohol and drugs. But I'm a firm believer in just living it out. Yeah, I barely survived all the hurt, but I'm still here and its slowly getting okay.. for now. But I'd rather feel all the pain then destroy my mind and body with alcohol or drugs. I have to much to live for, especially now.

I hope to God I can keep my daughter away from both of these most importantly. I know for a fact that she won't be raised around anyone that is under the influence and wont have to see the affects of these. I never had to see my mom drunk or high and my daughter will never see me drunk or high. I want her to be able to have a good life and know that there are ways to enjoy life and cope with life without drinking or drugs. I hope she won't have to struggle with alcohol. I'm very terrified that she will have the alcoholism trait..