I won't regret a thing.

I know I talk about the same thing literally everyday. But all of this has affected me.

I was talking to one of my best friends today. Shes been through the whole thing with me and has seen everything happen, from when it was alright and to now. She was even there when I took the test and found out I was pregnant. Well anyways i had called her the other night because I was upset and frustrated at finding out about the "baby shower" I didn't call her back later after I change my perspective. I talked to her a couple days later and she was shocked at how my attitude had changed. She said I sounded..happy.

I don't think I'm perfectly happy right now, but I'm trying. Why shouldn't I be happy? I'm pregnant and having a beautiful baby girl AND I'm a good person.

Today she asked me if eveything was still going good (it changes) but everything is going pretty good. She asked if I had heard from him.. Nope, not in almost a week. She told me that, it's his loss not mine. And thats the truth. I shouldn't feel bad that hes missing out on this. Not really my problem. I can't care for HIM.

In the end, I'll have no regrets about this. I'll be able to look back and know that I've done the right things and made the best choices I could make in my situation. I can look back and be proud and my daughter can be proud.

I can't say the same for both of us. but like I said, it wasn't my choice and its not my problem.

I'm happy with my choices, I'm happy with myself. and I know that won't change. When you've done the right thing, you can't regret anything. he may not feel like hes missing out or that he's doing anything wrong, but hes caused a lot of hurt and pain where it wasn't nessacary and hes abandoned the person he needed to be here for. How can you live with that?