Wednesday, February 9, 2011

selfish

I really hate when people get mad at me for not texting them all the time and trying to hang out with them 24/7. Especially when they know my situation right now. I don't see them trying to go out of their way for me in my hard time although I went out of my way for them. I don't ask for much from people, just to respect me. I'm going through some things right now and I'm being a recluse and I hate that no one gets it. When they know why. I hate that I get made to feel bad but really I shouldn't. Friendship is a two way street or what the hell ever and I've done my part. Sorry if I'm a little incapable of going out of my way. But I don't see you trying any harder. Its a hard time right now and I just need a little compassion and understanding. Not to be treated badly because I can't coddle our friendship anymore. No one has ever gone out of their way for me, so why am I expected to pick everyone up when I'm struggling to do it for myself? I'm not trying to be selfish, well I'm not being selfish technically.But I need to take care of myself right now and I can't be expected to take care of everyone else. Its just so frustrating and I really can't stand it.

1 comment:

  1. Taylor are you okay?
    I know we don't see each other very much anymore, but if you ever need to talk or vent, I'll do my best to understand. Miss you girl.

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