well,

I'm done, I can't do the same thing anymore. I can't try to be friends with the same people who are turning out to be a little selfish. All the people I surround myself with care about partying and that alone. They worry about who they can get attention from and where the party is at. I feel like I'm being used for my car, I'm the chauffeur to the next party. No thanks. I didn't apply for that job. Plus I don't really like to party. Plus I'm talked down to. How much have I done for the people I love and I still get disrespected? no thanks, I'm done with all of this and I don't care if I'm all alone for a while at least I'll have my sanity and I'll save money. I'm not trying anymore, I'm not going out of my way to text anyone or call anyone because I know that nobody will go out of their way to text or call me. I'm starting over and I think I'll be a little selfish myself. I'm going to preserve my own happiness and my own independence and be on my own for a while. and there is something incredibly comforting about that.