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I've been kinda bugged about a lot of things these past couple weeks and I thought I would get over it by now. Am I? No definitely not. I'm actually more disturbed by everything. I wish I could could get away from all of this but it would require letting go of everything I know and starting over else where. I've done it before and I surely can do it again. I just don't know where to start. Its taking the big step and my doubts at being able to start over. I just want to be happy, why won't anyone let me?
On to other stuff.. Well this weekend was simple yet fun. I did stuff that I don't normally do and It was fun. I went to the movies with a certain someone Friday and we saw the next 3 days or whatever its called with Russell Crowe and the girl from 40 year old virgin that looks like Chelsea handler. It was intense but good. Not really my type of movie but I liked it besides the fact. I got invited to do other things after but I since I had been up since 5:15 I wasn't feeling to awake. So I hit the road to home rather then going out. Plus Saturday I had another football game to go to... yes I went to the BYU game again. sad but true. I even bought my self a BYU shirt. I know, I know! I will repent for that sin by buying a VERY expensive U of U shirt at Victoria's secret! So don't you worry about me ya'll. The reason for buying a BYU shirt was to be cute and surprise a certain BYU fan and I told him that I had surprise for him when I bought the shirt. When I met up with him I showed him my shirt and he liked the surprise I guess haha. The game was fun and I really enjoyed it although it was incredibly cold. It was nice down in Provo, despite the cold. No rain or snow. But when we got to the point of the mountain.. DUN DUN DUN it had snowed.. A whole freaking lot. I didn't know what the hell happened but it was very frightening and there was no way I would be able to drive in that. So I was stuck in SLC for the night... oh well. That ended up being okay because I was going to Harry potter with the fam the next day anyways which was way good! I couldn't stay in my seat it was so good! then I went shopping and bought a cupcake umbrella, yes an umbrella with cupcakes on it!
Seeing as all I ever really talk about is cupcakes.. yeah my life is boring and all I seem to think about is cupcakes because that's really the only joy I have right now well that and Miss Bella. Not to be depressive and weird but that's really true. I don't have a lot of things going on lately or a lot thats really interesting or cool. Its been a little bit of a shit fest lately and I don't feel like complaining exactly but yeah. I'm just tired of being treated poorly by people I care about and dealing with people who could care less what they do to me. I'm not looking back and I'm moving forward because I can't stomach anymore of this. I've always thought of myself as a decent person but I might be wrong.. oh well I guess.