To an old friend

This by any means isn't going to be a happy post. I just recently have discovered the true colors of a close friend. we haven't talked in a couple months due to the horrible things she had said and done to one of my best friends. We never personally have had an issue but I found out some things that she has said and done to me while we were friends and it made me so upset that I started crying right then and there. I thought she was a good person, somebody I could trust and have fun with. Well I guess not.. It kinda sucks when you love someone with all your heart and consider them a close friend and all they can do is say how annoying you are and try to find ways to get out of hanging out with me. Also it hurts that she would make up lies to make me feel bad about myself by telling me that people didn't want to hang out with us because of the way I am. I'm sorry that your annoyed at me but that doesn't mean that other people are too. The funny thing is that all the things that annoy her about other people are the things she does herself. Like saying that I'm to hyper? well uhhh have you not seen yourself? Getting mad at someone talking shit? What do you think you do? Its funny how awful that you treat the people that love you, and how much you would go out of your way for the people that could care less. No wonder you feel like a doormat. Have you ever thought of that? For a minute there I actually believe that I had done something wrong to you, but then I watched as you dropped all of the people who had been your friends for a long time and who really cared about you did I realize that no it's not me, it is you. Have fun with that because your going to lose all the people that matter and your going to be surrounded by people who are just there for themselves. If you thought you were a doormat before, believe me you haven't experienced anything yet. I just can't believe the person that you have turned out to be, its so sad and disappointing. and what is even worse is that you don't realize anything that your doing wrong. Your just concerned with the fact that you got dumped and all you care about is you. You think I'm immature? well if I were you I wouldn't be pointing fingers. selfish is a word that they made for a person like you and I hope one day you can realize what your doing and what you have done because your pursuit of happiness will most likely fail if you don't.

I will try not to leave this post on an unhappy note by saying that I do have some amazing people in my life that I'm so grateful for. I'm happy with myself to accept my faults and try to fix the ones that hurt other people. I'm glad to know that I will never act like the person I just wrote about because I have learned how awful it is to be a person like that and how much it hurts the people that truely love me. I bet I will be so much happier without people like that in my life and I'm glad that the negativity that a relationship like that brought, will be over. I'm happy to have the friends that I have and the family that I have and I'm excited to meet more people. I'm lucky as well, not to let someone like that affect my feelings towards people. I'm not going to let a bad person like that, spoil the rest for me. This is a new chapter and I'm happy.