I've been struggling today, the thought of losing a friend (although we haven't really been friends for a while) is bugging me. I can't believe it. It's for the better, it really really is. I'm also dreading the fact that I need to make a doctors appointment. sounds weird but when your diabetic, a doctors appointment is hell. I mean my doctor is nice guy I have known him for 12 years now but I still hate having to go and see him. I hate the judgment I receive for doing badly with my diabetes. I really wish my diabetes was top priority but in all honesty, its impossible for it to be. I don't live a diabetic friendly life although most of my friends are diabetic. Just the constant demand of my attention from other aspects of my life keep me from taking care of my diabetes. Plus the fact that I don't have positive support when it comes to taking care of myself. The motivation I receive is rather vicious. It consists of people telling me I'm going to die if I don't do this and that. That irritates me and just makes me want to prove everyone wrong so I don't take care of myself. I'm not trying to blame anyone else for my poor diabetes care, but a little positive support would help. I really really just want to break my bad habits and take care of myself, I just need to focus. Oh boy.
Well on the bright side this weekend was pretty fun! Wednesday night me and My friend Nikki ran into one of our old camp friends. He does a drag show at a local gay club and invited us to come! I was pretty excited because it sounded like fun, plus I had an assignment due that needed me to go into a different type of culture and this was a completely different type of culture for me. So we went. and it was way fun! The drag show was amazing and the lead drag queen was hilarious! This club wasn't creepy either, most clubs I've been to are extremely creepy with creepy guys latching onto you when your just trying to dance. There you can just dance and have fun! Everyone there was so friendly and the atmosphere was nice. I honestly plan on going back there.
Then saturday was a decent day, although I slept through most of it. Me and Nikki decided to go to brunch at squatters which is my favorite place to eat! we got my favorite waiter and I almost got away with ordering alcohol but I felt bad lying so I didn't. But I did order the french toast and sausage and let me tell you! it was amazing! After that me and Nikki headed back to her place singing out lungs out in the car! Then we helped her mom get ready to go to wendover and she looked so pretty! Then we decided that we would head to tooele so Nikki could pick up some of her clothes she had there and so I could pick up my cupcake stuff that I needed to make cupcakes for my Grandpas birthday party! Then after that I made the cupcakes and we drank some squatters beer. And the cupcakes turned out so CUTE, even if I had been drinking haha. We got hungry and picked up more beer and some yummy pizza and spinach cheese dip from squatters, ate that and talked. on our way back we even met some boys in a car and got there number! they wanted to hang out but since I'm not interested in dating anyone I declined. It was a nice night in and we stayed up all night because we had to pick up her mom, uncle, moms boyfriend, chuck and chucks girlfriend from the fun bus stop at 4 am. (we figured it would be better to just stay up all night rather then waking up) After that we all went to bed. that was until I woke up at 5:30 and started puking. stupid beer.
after that fun fest I woke up at like 12:00 (gross I know) to get ready to go to a family members baby shower. I met up with my mom, aunt and grandma and we went over there. It was an alright time. I don't know this side of my family very well but we talked and had some good food and then left because we were celebrating my grandpas 69th birthday. We haven't really done birthday celebrations lately. I think the last celebration was kelee's 20th which was way back in may. So it was nice that we were all together! Everyone complimented my cupcakes saying they looked "professional" (thanks guys even if your lying!) and they also said they tasted pretty good! which better be the truth because I will be making them all cupcakes come time for their birthdays. Plus this is only my second birthday doing this. We ate even more good food and hung out and then I had to head home because I had class the next day pretty early. Even though I didn't even end up going to bed early.
well I'm looking forward to my diabetes diagnosis day! that is coming up on the 15th so I better get to planning! I need to think of some more yummy cupcakes to make. this will be my 12th anniversary! I'm also coming up on my 1 year anniversary at my work! A whole year, its crazy! I'm so lucky to have found this job. I'm also Looking forward to making cupcakes for my aunts birthday, I plan on making pumpkin chocolate chip ones with cream cheese frosting :) Soooo excited! and of course I'm excited for halloween! Lately I have felt the urge to learn how to cook, I want to make soups and breads and of course cupcakes and cookies :).
Well on the bright side this weekend was pretty fun! Wednesday night me and My friend Nikki ran into one of our old camp friends. He does a drag show at a local gay club and invited us to come! I was pretty excited because it sounded like fun, plus I had an assignment due that needed me to go into a different type of culture and this was a completely different type of culture for me. So we went. and it was way fun! The drag show was amazing and the lead drag queen was hilarious! This club wasn't creepy either, most clubs I've been to are extremely creepy with creepy guys latching onto you when your just trying to dance. There you can just dance and have fun! Everyone there was so friendly and the atmosphere was nice. I honestly plan on going back there.
Then saturday was a decent day, although I slept through most of it. Me and Nikki decided to go to brunch at squatters which is my favorite place to eat! we got my favorite waiter and I almost got away with ordering alcohol but I felt bad lying so I didn't. But I did order the french toast and sausage and let me tell you! it was amazing! After that me and Nikki headed back to her place singing out lungs out in the car! Then we helped her mom get ready to go to wendover and she looked so pretty! Then we decided that we would head to tooele so Nikki could pick up some of her clothes she had there and so I could pick up my cupcake stuff that I needed to make cupcakes for my Grandpas birthday party! Then after that I made the cupcakes and we drank some squatters beer. And the cupcakes turned out so CUTE, even if I had been drinking haha. We got hungry and picked up more beer and some yummy pizza and spinach cheese dip from squatters, ate that and talked. on our way back we even met some boys in a car and got there number! they wanted to hang out but since I'm not interested in dating anyone I declined. It was a nice night in and we stayed up all night because we had to pick up her mom, uncle, moms boyfriend, chuck and chucks girlfriend from the fun bus stop at 4 am. (we figured it would be better to just stay up all night rather then waking up) After that we all went to bed. that was until I woke up at 5:30 and started puking. stupid beer.
after that fun fest I woke up at like 12:00 (gross I know) to get ready to go to a family members baby shower. I met up with my mom, aunt and grandma and we went over there. It was an alright time. I don't know this side of my family very well but we talked and had some good food and then left because we were celebrating my grandpas 69th birthday. We haven't really done birthday celebrations lately. I think the last celebration was kelee's 20th which was way back in may. So it was nice that we were all together! Everyone complimented my cupcakes saying they looked "professional" (thanks guys even if your lying!) and they also said they tasted pretty good! which better be the truth because I will be making them all cupcakes come time for their birthdays. Plus this is only my second birthday doing this. We ate even more good food and hung out and then I had to head home because I had class the next day pretty early. Even though I didn't even end up going to bed early.
well I'm looking forward to my diabetes diagnosis day! that is coming up on the 15th so I better get to planning! I need to think of some more yummy cupcakes to make. this will be my 12th anniversary! I'm also coming up on my 1 year anniversary at my work! A whole year, its crazy! I'm so lucky to have found this job. I'm also Looking forward to making cupcakes for my aunts birthday, I plan on making pumpkin chocolate chip ones with cream cheese frosting :) Soooo excited! and of course I'm excited for halloween! Lately I have felt the urge to learn how to cook, I want to make soups and breads and of course cupcakes and cookies :).
Here are the cupcakes I made for my grandpa. Triple chocolate with white frosting and sprinkles. They turned out pretty much perfect :)
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