Ev had her first year check up today! She is 21 lbs and 4 oz. She is 30 inches tall! with a big ol head and tiny little feet. The doctor predicts she'll be tall.. which is fine by me! haha Everything else looks normal and healthy and just plain perfect! She's my perfect little toddler!
Weird to think I have a toddler now. She'll always be my baby though. :)
I find myself in a compromising position though. Where I'm starting to like someone a lot and I'm sure they like me too... but then again I don't want to rely on that because I feel like at any moment that will change. It's weird to like someone. It's weird to want to be with someone. Sometimes I don't even know if I should be.. because again it could all change, and maybe I'm stupid and they don't really like me and I'm too dumb to see the signs? Plus I question myself.. why would anyone want me? What do I have to offer? Why would I be worth it to them? It's just too confusing. All I know is I like someone and I hope they like me back and I hope this goes somewhere? Guess I'll just go with the flow.. I just don't want another crash and burn..
but seriously. Every guy I meet, I want to question their motives. I honestly don't understand what some boys would want, other than that..ya know. but then again.. why would they want that from me? I means there's really only one person who I haven't question their motives.. and so far that plays into why I like them..but I'm just an unsure person and I literally feel like any moment the ball will drop. I just keep myself enough out of reach that it won't completely crush me. Smart thinkin, ay?
When you have been hurt before its hard to open up to new possibilities. you shouldnt question motives to every guy because then it forces a veil over your head to not see any truth. Not every guy is an ass, but if you question too much your giving them the ass label already. Try and let things happen, maybe this time youll be surprised!
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