random post

So I'm on the hunt for Ev's FIRST birthday outfit. She will be 11 months old on FRIDAY. Can you believe it? It's hard to think of where I was at a YEAR ago, only a year! SO much has changed! Some for the better, some for the worst but irregardless A LOT has been stuffed into one year.
I remember being little and a year seemed like a lifetime.. and now here I am grown up and years feel like I week. It honestly takes my breath away to think of how much time has past and how much has happened.

I feel that I'm a completely different person from who I was last year. Bad and good. Last year I was so vulnerable, scared, lost and anxious. This year I'm a little bit stronger but I do have a lot of anger that I'm slowly getting rid of.

You can't hold onto the past forever, because the future seems to come at full speed and you NEED to be prepared.

but other then that, just waiting patiently for a job to come along and snatch all my time up. In a way i'm ready, but in another way, my heart is at home and home is where I want to be.. but we can't always have what we want.