I just.

The thing that sucks when you're finally ready to not be alone..is when you're the most lonely.
I don't even know how to meet people, I don't even know who to meet people with. If I'm out, I'm sacrificing time with Ev but if I'm home..then I'm alone.

I don't even want a relationship, I just want new people to talk and hang out with! I love all my friends but their all so wrapped up in their own families and spouses (as they should) and I don't really have that. I mean I do with Ev but it gets lonely not being able to share anything with anyone else.

I just want to not feel alone! blaaaah.