grunt

Despite it being Ev's 10 month birthday. Today SUCKED.

The traffic was bad, I didn't feel good ect..

but the thing is.. I actually like my job, I like the people whatever..the drive is just KILLING me. But I have fun, so its worth it, right? WRONG. I just transferred over to a new team lead and I'm not a fan. I thought this place was better because they didn't seem to baby you as much.. but no. They do.

guess what, NO talking. Absolutely NOT. Unless you're the team lead of course, or one of her favorites. Talk away! I got told that I talk WAY to much and they are not having it. Uh, okay. I don't talk to anyone that much. I feel secluded and lonely about 95% of the day. It drives me NUTS to not be able to talk. I mean I talk on the phone but its not for conversation by any means. but allllllright, I won't talk to anyone, anymore. Happy?

I hate when good things get ruined. I hate feeling stuck and in a bad situation which I feel like I'm in now. Working with shitty circumstances and I'm not one of those lucky people to land a decent job where I fit in and like what I do.. where do you find those? How do you get them? That's the question.

All I want to do is nothing. I want to soak into the wall and be. Why not, since all I can do at my job anyways. Is sit there and be a mindless working robot who shows no emotions. Well if that's what they want, that's what they get. I won't talk to anyone, I'll grunt responses. Well until I get in trouble for grunting to people because I'll probably grunt too much or something fucking absurd.

Oh and don't expect me to look nice. I'm not even going to bother with looking nice. What's the point?

if you can't tell I'm a little pissed.