Today has been a freaky day..
So ya'll know how my weekend went... well the bad part involving my ex. yeah..
well today I commented on a friends status. It was something about not being a dick cause you have one. So I made a comment, not really directed at him it was just funny and mean and it went with the status. Well he commented on it. I thought a fight was about to go down but not really.. it was just awkward. Ugh..
Then I go to lunch. At my work we have a little salad bar place, the public is welcome. Its cheap and well, its salad, you can't go wrong there. Well there was a guy there. I know he doesn't work here because I've never seen him before. I saw him from the side and he could have been my ex. No lie.
Same skin complexion, same hair, same build, dresses the same ect. talk about CREEPY. He's different looking in the face but hell, It shook me up.
I wonder if he's nice though, haha he could pass for my baby daddy! I want to run into this kid again. It's so creepy that I want to. haha
Obviously I'm bothered by what happened Saturday. Disturbed really. THANK GOD I have a counselor appointment. A part of me feels like reaching out to my ex but a part me knows its not a good idea at all. I don't get why I'm so drawn to him sometimes. Maybe because hes impacted my life more than most. I hate it though and I'll be happy when I'm free from that. free. Ah. If only it could be now.
Yuck I feel all yucky in heart and soul. I'm not at peace right now. The peace is all stirred up. I hate this feeling more than anything.
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