It's a joke

I'm irritated (no surprises there!) I've had diabetes for 13 years now. THIRTEEN years. I haven't been the best diabetic. I hate testing, I can't remember to, its such a small annoyance that I just don't do it. I wanted a continuous glucose monitor to help with that. This thing will beep if I'm going low, and beep if my blood sugars getting high. So I can test and take care of it. I was just about to get one, I needed to make up blood sugars for a month and then BAM I'll get one.

But no..

The person I'm seeing for my diabetes thinks that I should test SIX times a fucking day for THIRTY goddamn days before I can get one. Do you think that if I could do that, that I would? Do you think if I could test that many times a day that I would need a continuous glucose monitor? NO I wouldn't. Why the fuck would I would to be plugged up to TWO different things? for fun? fuck no. I wanted one so It could help me take care of my diabetes. I get that I need to test 6 times a day but I DON'T remember. that's why I need a stupid thing to ALERT me when I need to. Seriously. I hate that doctors offices put you through hell. All the lady needs to do is sign a thing to say I can get one. What the fuck do you thinks going to happen if I get one? UH.. the worst is I won't use it.. dumb asses. I seriously want to cry because there was so much hope when I heard that I was getting one. Now Its ruined.