A little update.

I haven't been out much since becoming a mom. I mean I'm not stuck at home and anti-social but I haven't really gone out and have done "grown up" things. When Ev was 5 weeks, My friend had a birthday party, So of course I went out! It was fun and I really enjoyed myself. The next weekend, I went out again. Again it was fun.. The next weekend I was invited to the sand dunes.. but I didn't go. Then this weekend I was asked out on a date, I didn't go, mostly because Ev had her shots that day and she was in so much pain that I didn't want to leave her. But last night I went out, and again I enjoyed myself. I really do love going out and hanging out with friends. I call them mental health nights, where I escape all the hard work and responsibilty. I'm still responsible, I don't get wasted or anything. I just enjoy myself. But in a way I feel guilty for going out. Like I'm doing something wrong. I know I'm not though because I feel that every parent deserves some time to themselves. but still...I feel guilty.

So tomorrow is the day I've been dreading since Aug. 16th. Yeah, that's right, I'm going back to work. I'm just not excited about it. I would be okay about it if I could actually stand my job. But I HATE HATE HATE the work I do. It's annoying. I'll probably be to exhausted to think, I've been a ravenous pig lately so I'll be starving the whole time. and it will probably be busy because I have no idea WTF is going on with work these days. and I doubt anyone will tell me what the hell is going on soooo Tomorrow is going to suck balls. Plus I won't see my babes ALL day. :(

So ya'll know I've gotten my good ol IUD. So far so good I suppose but I have noticed some changes. It's definetly turned me into quite the bitch. I pretty much have moments where if you even talk to me I'm a rude bitch. I have no idea why, but I just feel so grumpy and I can't really stop it because at the time I feel it, I feel I have a good reason to be pissed (although, I don't) I also happen to feel hungry like 24/7. and I want fried food (Like KFC double downs) and candy (milky ways!) and some other food/candy in between. I'm trying to be careful though cause I do NOT want to gain back what I've lost.

By the way, Those KFC double downs are pretty freaking amazing. I don't eat them daily.. not even weekly so I think I'm doing pretty good. But if you scanned my brain you could see that I think about them often.. maybe I'll treat myself to diet pepsi, a double down, and a milky way. I better run a mile first..

Well I guess that's all for now!