It's only what you want, not what you need.

So I had a lesson in selflessness today..

I was getting ready when I noticed a text message from a certain someone that I'm a teensy, tiny bit interested in (I'm still going by my rule though) asking..well more like telling me to get my stuff and lets go to the sand dunes!
My heart sank though.
Uhh I can't just go to the sand dunes for the weekend.. especially in like an hours notice. As much fun as that would have been and as much as I wanted to go, I can't.
I have Evee and I can't just leave her.. and I can't just take her. She's too little to take and babygirl is a tough one, especially at night.
Plus I haven't left Evee overnight and I'm not sure how I am going to that..

Oh the sacrifices you have to make. I want to be a 20 year old and run around, have fun but I'm a mom before I'm anything else. So I turned down a very fun weekend with a very cute guy.

all in all I'll consider it a blessing maybe.. Cause I probably wouldn't have stuck by 6 month  "no dating" rule. I have to stick by it because I'm not ready physically or emotionally to be involved with someone. I am kind of vulnerable and I don't want to put myself in a place where I will be used. Plus I have waaaay more important things I have to focus on. Well only one thing really.

Sometimes you just have to give up the things you want to do, for the things you need to do.
and that's life for ya!