I'll explain..
So I may not have mentioned it, probably because I'm still so unsure about the whole situation but I have to do what I feels right and I can't deny someone the right to their responsibility. So with saying that.. Evs dad is going to be in her life. It's good news for sure. Its a lot of stress off of my back and if hes willing to be my friend and be Evs dad then I want him around. So far, so good! The past is the past and we are just trying to move forward as friends and parents. sooo hopefully this lasts.
but anyways.. Monday night I wasn't feeling 100% I kept having contractions but not the normal kind. This time they were PAINFUL. they hurt so bad to do anything. I didn't want to rush off to the hospital so I waited it out and they seemed to go away. The next morning they came back a little but I was now puking. I couldn't hold anything down. The nurse said I needed to come in to the hospital if I kept throwing up.. so I did. I found out that I was dilated to a 2 and 80% thinned, Evs head is -1 in my pelvis. Sooo the doctors thought I was in labor and since i had been throwing up I had gotten ketones a little (when you don't have enough insulin or don't eat your body will produce ketones which break down the fat in your body to feed you, its common in diabetics and people with eating disorders, its VERY dangerous) They were a little worried and wanted to make sure I didn't go into DKA and they wanted to watch my labor to see if it would progress. (DKA is diabetic ketoacidosis, thats when your body is running off of ketones and your basiclly producing a acidic substance in your body.) so I was admitted and they decided that I would be taken off my pump and put onto an insulin drip and they would monitor my bloodsugar and insulin intake. So fine..
then they wanted me to participate in a study which is were I would get the steroid shot to help advance Evs lungs. Its not proven to be beneficial for babies after 33 weeks but they were having a study to see if it did have benefits. I thought "why not?!" because I want ev to be healthy and if she were to come now, then it would help to know that her lungs would be okay. So I said yes and the only risk was that it would make my bloodsugars whacky. But the hospital was monitoring them so it would be fine. I had to stay 24 hours so they decded they would "slow" my labor by having me take these pills.. fine.
Sooo after doing this my bloodsugars did spike, mostly after meals (duh) and it never went down. My mom noticed that I smelled ketoney. we trusted the doctors that they knew what they were doing but I kept getting worse and worse. so I decided to opt out of the study and stop taking the medicine to slow my labor. The nurses and doctors made me out to feel like a horrible person and that I was selfish that I would want to have Ev now and not develop her lungs. But I was sick and they wouldnt test me for ketones until my mom threw a fit. In which we found out that I was NOT on a fast acting insulin I was on an insulin that I and probably the majority of diabetics don't use anymore called "R" its a slow acting insulin that takes hours to work. and I was on a VERY low basal rate (my hourly intake). Plus they weren't giving extra for meal. I also had a burning in my throat that was not from heartburn. My mom yelled to tell them that I was in DKA and they need to fix it and they said I wasn't but they took my blood anyways and guess what... I was in DKA. Uhh I thought I was there to NOT go into DKA. So I ended up staying ANOTHER night and I was hooked up to all these machines and I could bathe. I also puked my brains out (my bodys way of ridding itself of ketones) and my labor ended up stopped. sooo I went to to the hospital to have a baby and left with DKA. Thank God my mom took over and put my pump in or me and Ev would NOT be okay.
now that I've been home I have felt great but I'm now going WAY low..like today I puked in the costco parking lot.. sorry.. and almost had a seizure. I feel bad for the folks that saw me crying and puking my brains out with my belly hanging out (I pulled my shirt up to get the pressure of my belly) but, what can ya do? I'm just so tired and worn out and ready to be..done.
but on the upside. My best friend Rachel had her baby!!!!!! She had her little boy yesterday! He weighs 7 pounds 9 ounces and was 19 inches long. He is soooo handsome! Such a perfect little boy!! I'm so happy for her and I'm glad I got to meet him. His name name is Liam Beck and I LOOOOVE him. :) congrats to Rachel and Kade!!
Seeing his handsome little face makes me so baby hungry! I looooove newborns! Lucky me, I have one on the way! Hopefully my next hospital visit produces a baby and not a near death experience. Ahh I love this little guy :)
good news.. I'm now offically off of work for the next little while, YAY!
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