I have a week left. In a week I'll be a mom. In a week I'll have a little girl to take care of, to raise, to be an example to, to protect. I can't even fully grasp how much life is about to change. and as excited as I am.. I'm terrified. I don't know why I'm so terrified but I am.
I have full confidence I can be a good mommy, but still the thought of being a mom is hard to grasp. I want to be the best mom I can be.
all in all, I feel a lone in this. Well I've been alone in this. I mean I have him participating in her life but I fear that he will get bored and up and leave her. He seems to get bored with things after a short time, and then he moves on. I have a deep deep fear hes going to do that to Ev. Which isn't fair to her.
I'm trying to have faith and confidence in him. but I still have my fears. Are they valid? I think so..
Life is weird. It changes so much and so fast. This chapter of my life is over and a whole new one is beginning. Its scary but its exciting. I just don't know how to feel at this point. The future is scary.
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