funk

I feel super frustrated as of late. It may be because I feel stuck. I want to have this baby but I'm so scared of having this baby but theres nothing interesting between those two feelings. Maybe I'm bored too, since I'm on bed rest and don't have much going on. I can't really go anywhere and I don't feel like going anywhere. I don't feel like doing anything really. Its kind of depressing to say the least. I wish I felt vibrant enough to go shopping or out, but every time I do I wind up throwing up lunch in the parking lot of the store. That's a true story, did I tell you? maybe I have.. but anyways. I'm just so frustrated with this point. I'm annoyed, I'm sad, I'm bored, I'm tired, I'm uncomfortable and yeah not many other ways I can explain that. I just feel like I'm in limbo until I get my daughter and theres just nothing to do until I get to that point. I wish I could sleep until I get to that point but well.. I can't do that either since I'm uncomfortable. Maybe I have the baby blues? even though your not suppose to get those until after pregnancy but I feel like I have them now. I hope I cheer up within in the next couple of days. I hate being in funky moods like this.