Pregnabetes

I was told my face looks skinnier today.. weird. I thought It would look like I gained weight since all I did for the past 5 days was EAT. And fatty foods at that.
See I crave only a few things
fruit
cereal
pastry type items (donuts as of late)
and fries

and I eat regular food on top of those snack items. Like meat, vegatables, rice, pasta ECT. So there is NO way that I could be skinnier right now.
Buuuut with all the carbs I eat, my bloodsugars have been running high and insulin IS NOT working. I hate, hate, hate it! Being diabetic and pregnant is scary at times. At first insulin worked to well and I was almost always on the verge of seizures now its the opposite. My diabetes is no longer predictable. I've had it for 13 years and before I was pregnant I could literally guess on everything and be right, now.. not so much. Everything is DIFFERENT. It changes from day to day. It gets extremely frustrating though because I don't want my diabetes to harm my baby girl and I'm trying really hard to not let it but it seems like I can't get it under control. I started crying last night because it scared me. But I just have to be obsessive compulsive about testing. My doctor suggested not eating high carb things like cereal but its hard to NOT eat cereal when its usually the only thing that sounds good. So I guess if I insist on eating high carbs like cereal then I should be physcotic about testing and taking insulin. Oh boy.. this is going to be difficult.