yesterday

Yesterday was yesterday, today is today and tomorrow doesn't have to be like yesterday because today is brand new.

I'm still full of pain and I still hurt and I know I'll probably feel this way for a long, long time. But all I can do is move on and try. I assume the pain will go away eventually and maybe theres light at the end of this tunnel or whatever.

I'm cutting all ties and moving forward. I don't need to hear about it, I don't need to see it. I'm going to act like it doesn't exist. and by it I mean him. Hes not a person, he's a thing and I'll further refer to him as "it"

Sometimes like I feel like a bad person for being so mean about it. But I don't know how I can be nice after everything. and if I'm ever going to be okay and feel happy, I need it to be gone. It can't be around. Not that it will be hard for it to stay away. It has done quite a good job at staying away the past few months.

but moving on...

I really appreciate the people around me. I appreciate the nice comments and words of advice and the encouragement. It helps. Its helping me survive this and know that I have people supporting me and backing up. So thank you everyone!