Bon Voyage, In memory of, Goodbye? I don't care, as long as you're gone.

I heard a quote today

"I followed my heart and it led me down a dead end road"

I feel ya there! I was so manipulated and pushed into something that I knew would end up like it has. I was led to believe that we could have a good life together and raise our baby and be happy.
I knew he would do what he did instead. I knew he didn't mean a damn thing he said. That's just the way he is. He says what he needs to, to get himself out of trouble. He does what he wants and waits until people will just accept it. He gets his cake and he eats it too.
I don't think he realizes who hes fucked over. I don't think that he understands the damage he has done. I don't think he gets what consequences are. If I ever see him again, well, I'm going to walk away. I have nothing left to say to him, I have nothing that I want from him. I don't even care if he apologizes. It won't change a damn thing.
I honestly just don't care anymore. I don't care that he's going to miss out on this. I don't care what he's doing, I don't care what hes going to do. I don't want to know, I don't care to know and I never will.

Its over, its really just over.

basically this is a memorial of sorts. This is a last goodbye, a good ole' farewell to all the stupid bullshit. You can even take the memories with you! Bon voyage, dear friend. Good luck in the big bad world.

I'll still have to have the nightmares, and I'll still feel sad from time to time. Isn't that what grieving is all about? Unlike a real goodbye, I don't wish to keep this spirit alive, I don't think I'll visit my memories and try my best to keep them alive, for old times sake. Oh no. If I could bury them and forget about them, well hell I'd be out diggin that hole right now! No my grief will end once time buries these "memories".

So goodbye to that, and hello to a new life. It's time and I'm ready.

come what may, as long as it doesn't have him involved.