I feel inspired and a little angry

I need to stop being such a depressed bitch. I'm sick of letting people do shitty things to me to make me feel bad. If you don't want the white picket fence life, fine. But I want it and I will have it. I don't need anyone to help me get it. I know what I want out of life, and things may have not gone as planned but its all the more reason for me to work harder and get them. I feel inspired to change and better myself so I can have the things I want out of life. Because its my life.

I never needed a man before, I don't need one now. I only wanted him there because I wanted him to be there. I don't need him, not at all. 

Okay, maybe I need to come back and vent. I'm getting awfully sick of people lying. I don't trust any ones word anymore because that means nothing now. I've been proved wrong about trusting peoples word. They don't do what they say they will. If you mean it, you will do it and when you do it, I'll be believe you. You can swear up and down that you'll be here, but you have to actually be here and you're not. So that means you lied. I'm sick of selfish, immature people who can't take responsibility for the things they've done.
I'm just going to hope that one day I get redeemed for all this pain. I hope that one day I can feel happy and carefree like I used too and I hope they can have everything in life that I wanted. Not just for me. I would seek revenge on the person who hurt me most but that would be stupid. Because one day I'm sure he'll wake up to exactly the same life with all the same things but the difference is he'll be older and have nothing to show for his life. he'll have the life he thought he wanted but he will hopefully realize he is missing out on the best kind of life. Sure he says he'll "be there" but hes not here now, and I know he won't be there later on. He seems to be trying hard to remove himself from my future and my life which is so dumb because my life isn't about me anymore, its about something else and he will never get to know it because he's to selfish to realize. I really hope he knows that I won't wait for him to come around. I have zero tolerance for immaturity or selfishness. Hope you enjoy the choices you made, because that's all you have now.