Day 27.

Why I'm doing this 30 day challenge thing

Well I'm doing it because I really have nothing to blog about. Well I do but it would all be about is how I'm angry or sad. Which lately it has been, besides the 30 day challenge thing. I hate being so sad and angry but I can't help it. Its hard to have to deal with shit like this, especially now. But honestly, if I could give advice, just be careful who you let influence you life and always watch out for yourself. I'm trying to not be such a black hole of depression so you all don't think I'm such a freak. I wish I could explain myself, but I'm not ready yet.

Anyways..If you have a weak stomach, probably shouldn't read this.

today was a pretty good day I guess. I went shopping for some things I'll be needing but again I can't really explain myself..yet.

but this morning got off to an amazing start! that's sarcasm. but I'll explain. So this morning I decided to eat some cocoa pebbles and strawberries. yummy right? well right. So I ate the strawberries quite fast and I regret that because when I took my dishes to the sink I got this rumble in my stomach like I needed to burp. So I went and sat down at the counter and waited for it to pass. I was hoping I wouldn't throw up but I didn't feel the urge so I thought i was fine. Usually when I throw up I get a 10 second time limit to get somewhere throw upable. did i this time? NO. as soon as I knew I was going to throw up, I did. since I was at the kitchen counter, I was no where throw upable. So I had to cover the best I could until I got there. Sooo There was a little strawberry/cocoa pebbles trail to the sink. and I throw up all in the sink and down the front of it. No, I'm not kidding. So I was standing over the sink after puking and crying cause I honestly just puked EVERYWHERE. my mom, oblivious to what had just happened was in the living room working on fixing the sliding glass door turns to me and I said "I just threw up!" and she said apologetically (and probably a little pissed it was in the sink) "Oh.. Did you?" and I said "yeah, everywhere.." She was a little shocked when she saw the mess and didn't even realized it happened until it was over. I was still crying and told her I would clean it up and then I threw up some more.. then after everything she started laughing and trying to help me clean it up but she started gagging and couldn't. I really don't blame her. lol but she ended up washing the kitchen rugs and mopping the whole kitchen down. yeah, it was that bad.